Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing,
There is a field.
I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
The world is too full,
To talk about.
Like several other posts in the GRIT Series, I wrote this one at a snail’s pace and got stuck in the weeds of the details for way too long. But here, finally, are my final thoughts on the need for GRIT—the willingness to Go Right Into Trepidation and sit in it a while….
Sept. 10 – Oct. 2, 2022, 6 planets in retrograde ushered out the gentleness of summer and pulled my family into the rigid routine of autumn—less sleep interrupted by the harshness of alarm clocks and schedules. It brings a period of transition that I have found difficult ever since my eldest entered kindergarten; this September, they entered grade 12. In the meantime, time continues to fly by, seemingly faster and faster—is it my age? My experience of time has also changed—it feels less linear and I seem to lose disconnected segments of time in a vague blur. Did that happen last week, last month, or last year? It’s all a jumble.
Finding myself alone at home again, I felt pulled backward into significant emotional angst; unworthiness issues that I hoped I had overcome returned with a vengeance and I wallowed in what I can only call grief. Overwhelmed with invisible yet very real tumultuous feelings, I retreated further inward, unable to focus or accomplish anything. Perhaps you felt some discombobulating emotions during this time as well and wondered why?
Mercury Retrogrades 2022
Jan. 14 – Feb. 3, 2022
May 10 – June 3, 2022
Sept. 10 – Oct. 2, 2022: Mercury, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto were all retrograde simultaneously.
Dec. 29, 2022 – Jan. 18, 2023
“The term “retrograde” refers to the illusion created by planets in their retrograde periods, during which the planet’s orbit around the sun makes it appear to be slowing down and moving backward. In astrology, retrogrades are essentially periods during which your life might slow down significantly, prompting you to revisit certain themes or struggles, depending on which planet is retrograde and what that planet governs in astrology. For example, Mercury is said to influence communication and logic — an enormous part of our day-to-day life. When Mercury moves retrograde, the planet isn’t moving forward or operating at its fullest potential, meaning you might experience some mishaps in these areas. If it feels like everything in your life is riddled with setbacks and slowing down to a screeching halt, that’s understandable.”
All the Planetary Retrogrades Still to Come In 2022, October 3, 2022, by Theresa Massony
Sep 9: Mercury Retrograde Began
Sep 15: Queen Elizabeth Passed
Sep 19: Queen Elizabeth’s Funeral
Sep 22: Autumnal Equinox
Oct 2: Mercury Retrograde Ended
I subscribe to the Moon Phase & Astronomy Calendar, by Canton Becker from Santa Fe, New Mexico USA. Thank you, Canton!
This entire GRIT Series has focused on aligning with gravity—the need to ground to the earth to resolutely face discomfort and ultimately break down negative connections, to ultimately find a place of neutrality. Goodness knows, the last two years have given me ample opportunity to practise Going Right Into Trepidation, as related in the other GRIT posts. But, this past month, I felt like I really dug in deeply. I’ve spent most of my life as a ‘knowledge seeker,’ always in my head, analysing and internalising an endless stream of information, yet all the while yearning to learn how to feel and intuit more. To my surprise, when I actually started to connect to what I interpreted as collective feelings, they overwhelmed me—I’ve learned the hard way that being ‘awake’ and ‘tapped in’ is a mixed blessing. And I continued to wonder, how do we feel everything without getting stuck in the heaviest energies?
GRIT: Go Right Into Trepidation
Aligned with Gravity; GRIT grounds us down, breaking down negative connections.
“When I resolutely face my discomfort, my fear disintegrates—my resistance dissolves.”
PLUCK: Purposeful Luck
Aligned with Levity, PLUCK raises us up, building up positive connections.
“When I intently focus on my purpose, my luck aligns—my possibilities harmonize.”
Over and over, I have received the guidance to simply “sit quietly and focus on the breath.” So, I’m learning to breathe through the heavy feelings—or to breathe them through—though I find doing so more challenging than it sounds. We’ve all heard the phrase, ‘just breathe,’ but we ‘just breathe’ completely automatically and many of us do it inadequately. Did you know, there’s quite a science to it?!
My dear sweet soul sister, Celeste Rose of Celeste Rose Somatics, is a Somatic Anxiety Practitioner; her work combines anxiety education with body-based practices rooted in nervous system intelligence, shadow work, and heart coherence. Celeste and I met as our children toddled around a preschool playground and we’ve travelled much of this ascension journey together. Celeste has gently guided me to understand that breathing well takes work—breathwork. But, it’s well worth it. When we focus on the breath, filling our lungs fully down to our belly, we engage our diaphragm, which in turn stimulates the vagus nerve; the vagus nerve system regulates our autonomic nervous system—that complex system that we have oversimplified into the sympathetic ‘flight-fight-freeze’ side and the parasympathetic ‘rest-and-digest’ side. Breathwork activates, tones, resets, and rebalances our nervous system. Celeste has even taught me the value of temporarily depriving the body of oxygen—more is not always better! Through the breath, we find balance and optimal function.
In the space between tasks, in the time between scheduled activities and responsibilities, we find a moment to stop, to become still—to pause long enough to allow ourselves to truly feel everything within the body—and to focus on the breath. And when feelings like grief and energies that we interpret as ‘negative’ overwhelm us, we breathe them through, and they gently release from the body as we exhale.
I’ve experimented with breathwork using my (and Nikola Tesla’s) favourite number pattern: 3-6-9
3: Inhale: Breathe in for a count of 3.
6: Exhale: Breathe out for a count of 6.
9: Pause between breaths for a count of 9.
“Be still, and know that I am God.”
What happens in the space between breaths?
In the pause between breaths—whether in a ‘breath hold’ before exhaling, or in a pause before inhaling again, we find rest and stillness in the zero point, that timeless place of neutrality—in the space between. In these fleeting seconds, we can feel like we will never need to breathe again. We sit within the perfect, eternal now. We want for nothing, feeling connected, at peace—we find our centre.
Central to the unified field theory of physicist, Nassim Haramein, is the idea that all objects on all scales are centered by stillness: a singularity at the center of what he terms a ‘Black Whole.’
And then…our body begins asking for air again and the struggle resumes; we retreat back into the very strong 3rd dimensional needs of the physical body and we inhale deeply again, fully filling our lungs with replenishing oxygen.
But, in this ‘space between,’ centred by stillness, perhaps we may also find ‘Samadhi,’ the single-pointedness of mind sought by Buddhist monks who effectively synchronise their breath and heart rate during meditation—achieving Heart Rate Coherence.
“Heart Rate Coherence (HRC) is a synchronisation between the breath and the heart rate, such that the heart speeds up on the inhalation and slows down again on the exhalation. The effect seems to be maximised at around 6 breaths per minute, which is in some sense a resonance point.”
20 May 2012, Heart Rate Coherence During Meditation, The Stress Resilient Mind Blog
These breathwork exercises are also integral to the practice of breatharianism—the ability to subsist without food, on prana or sunlight alone—they slow the metabolic rate while simultaneously optimising metabolism to make the most efficient use of nutrients. And so, as we rest more in this space between, we begin to release ourselves from the bonds of physical survival in the 3D.
In fact, the authors of the book, The Theory of Consciousness: It’s About Time, believe that our experience of time, how we see the universe, and our very consciousness, is all inextricably linked to metabolic rate. And, in the process, they explain my changing perception of time. They state that:
“It is not time that is changing but rather how much time a species consumes during a moment, based on its metabolic rate. …what is different is how each species sees the universe. Moreover, how members of the same species also see the universe in a slightly different way. This can be defined by just how much time is being encapsulated into one single moment of conscious awareness. … the brain of all species is capable of ‘warping time’, making it a time encapsulating organ.”
“A delay exists from the sub-conscious present moment where you interact with the electromagnetic spectrum and the conscious moment which is being experienced in the past. … This delay from the sub-conscious to the conscious moment is tied to metabolic rate. The faster the metabolic rate, the shorter the delay would be between the sub-conscious present and the conscious past. The slower the metabolic rate, the longer the delay would be between the sub-conscious present and the conscious past. This is directly linked to the amount of time, space, and energy that is consumed. The smaller the species (per Kleiber’s Law) the less amount of energy it consumes, the smaller the amount of space it takes up, and the smaller portion of time it consumes within a single moment of awareness. The larger the species (per Kleiber’s Law) the more amount of energy it consumes the larger the amount of space it takes up and the larger portion of time it consumes within a single moment of awareness.”
The Smaller the Species
…(consider a hummingbird), the faster the metabolic rate:
- the less amount of time, space, and energy it will consume;
- the smaller slices of time the species experience;
- the smaller the window between the sub-conscious and consciousness, which is defined in its relationship to the past, present and future;
- the slower time seems to pass;
- the fewer flicker fusion rates would be experienced;
- the less informative a single moment would be;
- the less self-conscious the species in question would be.
The Larger the Species
…(consider a whale), the slower the metabolic rate:
- the greater amount of time, space, and energy it will consume;
- the larger slices of time the species experience;
- the larger the window between the sub-conscious and consciousness, which is defined in its relationship to the past, present and future;
- the faster time seems to pass;
- the more flicker fusion rates would be experienced;
- the more informative a single moment would be;
- the more self-conscious the species in question would be.
Based on this theory of consciousness, when we further regulate our metabolic rate, balancing and optimising our nervous system through breathwork, we widen that ‘space between’ the sub-conscious and consciousness, opening the way to experience more within every single moment in time. As a result, we also necessarily experience consciousness in the past—our sub-conscious lives in the present: “The slower the metabolic rate, the longer the delay would be between the sub-conscious present and the conscious past.”
The introduction to the book, Act of Consciousness, by enlightened master Adamus Saint-Germain, states:
“He [Adamus] defines the difference between consciousness and energy, and makes the clear point that we are beings of consciousness—not energy—and that the passion of our pure consciousness attracts energy from the unified field to manifest our reality.”
We can say then that our sub-conscious attracts energy from the unified field in the present, to manifest our conscious reality in the past—the alchemy of manifestation transpires in the space between.
In this space between, we become more conscious, more aware—we gain access to more information and energy from the unified field. What calms and balances our bodies physiologically, also calms and balances our minds, increasing our capacity for knowledge and hyper-focus—to experience more ‘flicker fusion rates’ per moment. We also experience time as moving faster and faster, because we are experiencing more within each moment of it.
If everything is conscious, how does a physical being like Gaia—Mother Earth—experience reality? Faster and more consciously. Or our galaxy? Or our conscious universe? Faster and faster, more and more…until all reality happens all at once in that space between. In the I AM the ONE post, I noted that we could say that ‘Spirit vibrates at such an infinite rate of intensity and rapidity that it is practically at rest—the stillness at the centre, within the eternal now—like the hub within the centre of a rapidly spinning wheel appears to be motionless. And, so, we can express elemental reality as the dot within the circle: Yo soy el punto—I am the point’ or ‘Samadhi,’ the single-pointedness of mind. Within the Universal Mind, within Source, all time, all knowledge, all experience, is encapsulated in the eternal now. Within this space between, we find God.
Now you must learn that only infinite patience produces immediate effects. This is the way in which time is exchanged for eternity. Infinite patience calls upon infinite love, and by producing results now it renders time unnecessary. We have repeatedly said that time is a learning device to be abolished when it is no longer useful. The Holy Spirit, Who speaks for God in time, also knows that time is meaningless. He reminds you of this in every passing moment of time, because it is His special function to return you to eternity and remain to bless your creations there.
Take a deep breath and release it slowly. This journey is complete.
Take my hand
‘Cause we’re walking out of here
Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here
The space between
What’s wrong and right
Is where you’ll find me hiding, waiting for you
The space between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we’ll fill with time
The space between